Sunday, October 17, 2010
Even I'm getting annoyed with all of my posts about being lonely. I wish I could just magically find "her." I realize I have to put myself out there and I'm scared. I have NO confidence. I am so hard on myself, and it's terrible. I love my personality, but this body makes me hate myself. I know I have to get over it and do something, but again, I'm scared of failure. I have not had the easiest couple of years, and I think I'm used to getting the raw end of everything. Hopefully this new job will make me realize that things are going to be okay. I have something to do now, and something to save for. I just hope I can pull myself out of this funk.